You may write me down in history...

As of right now...I am pissed. Not a normal kind of just 'upset'...no, I'm PISSED.

I found out last week, (along with the other runts) that I would be moving offices. AGAIN. Initially I moved because they're going to take my cubie space and turn it into an office. "Great!" I'm thinking to myself...little did I know.

So, I moved. It was a complete nightmare. Here, where I am currently, I have no space for storage whatsoever and I still can't find things that I origionally moved with me. Somehow, someway though...I have found that I am much less distracted where I am (in the broom closet) and more determined to get things done in a timely basis than I was before.

Well...like in the first paragraph...I find out that I'm moving BACK to where I was before...now in an office! Not a bad idea you say? BAH!!! Just listen to this.

I just found out, that I won't be recieveing new office furniture. I'll get the old shit from the cubie stuffed into an office. Mind you, the cubie's were way oversized so now I won't have room for any of my filing cabinets...I MIGHT have room for a lamp to give me the sense of home that I long for so much while here at work.

GRRRRRRR. Oh, and this woman I work with, she'll be moving across from my new office. Thing is, she got the NEW office furniture and is bitching about it. Well I'm fuckin pissed and I have a god damn right to be pissed. So shut the fuck up woman and get over your little hissy fit.

Okay...I have to bitch to a human now. This blog just aint doing the job. Toodles till next time...I hope I'm much happier.

Posted by aschneidster at 10:52 AM | Permalink | Comments

I feel like my self confidence has almost disappeared. I remember the days when I was in High School when the idea of caring what other people thought about me was literally non-existent. Not to say that I've changed all that much though...I guess there's just one person that I need a good opinion from. That person, is my husband Kyle.

Kyle has been wonderful and I find myself entirely blessed to have him in my life every day. But lately, I can't seem to get one compliment out of him. It's like he's taken on all the sarcasm of his father and somehow molded it into his own bad habit. Don't get me wrong, sarcasm has it's time and place, but not with your wife when it's time to shell out a compliment!

For an example: I got my hair cut last night. When I came home, I wasn't looking for praise, I just wanted to know that Kyle liked what I had decided. And honestly, I could've cared less if he lied through his teeth about the cut. But, instead, he looked at me with this funny ass face and said, "It looks different."

Different? No shit it's different. I had hair down to my ass and now it's near my shoulders, dick.

How about, "It looks nice honey."

Would that have been too much to ask for? I guess so.

See, I've never heard or seen his father pay a female a true compliment. Everything is always said with sarcasm. Is that where he learned this shit from? I beg to differ with the idea only because he used to shower me with a compliment at least on a monthly basis.

But that is GONE. Long gone.

He may not rely on compliments in order to realize that I think he looks nice or whatever the case may be. But he has GOT TO FIGURE OUT sometime or another, that I am not a male and that I do reqire a little love and attention sometimes. You are probably asking yourself, "Well has she brought up the issue with him?"

Time and time again.

It's not like I'm some psycho bitch when I bring it up either. Frankly, I'm like, "Hey! Would it hurt you to tell me that I'm pretty or that I look nice once a month?!!" in the midst of laughter and playing...

All I've received in replies is one sarcastic comment after another or a nasty attitude.

Am I ugly or something?

When I brought that idea up a week ago, you want to know what his reply was?

"Looks aren't everything."

Oh HELL no!! I'm still fevered up about that. But, I've chosen not to make it an issue because he's so emotionally un-inclined, that bringing it up is literally a stupid idea.

Okay...I have had enough time to rant about this subject. I'll check in later and refresh the status of this difficulty I'm in the midst of.

~Toodles~

Posted by aschneidster at 10:52 AM | Permalink | Comments